Hello again 🙂

Hope you’re having a great week. If you’re not, the weekend is only one day away, so you have something to look forward to. 🙂

I am still trying to decide how I should write on here. Whether to write to my future self or so far the 3 people that have visited the site. I lowkey think I’m the 3 visitors because I’ve tried to see what the site looks like from different devices. Shhh.

Today I want to talk about Focus or the lack of it. Oooh! Look at me getting serious from the jump. Earlier this week, I read a quote that said “If you chase two rabbits, you will not catch either one.” Wow! Wow! Wow! Who is responsible for this sub? God or the universe? I’ve always wondered why it seems like the sermons in church and all the quotes I see on Instagram and Tumblr are always directed at me when I’m going through something. Whether it’s heartbreak, trust issues, a wounded relationship or focus in this case, they just seem like they are targeted at me. I also then think that maybe I’m just forcing things to be relevant to me. Either way, I caught this sub. Thank you very much. *side eye*

Let me give you guys a background story and my future self a quick reminder.  I have always loved science and from as far back as I can remember, I’ve wanted to be a Doctor. Great right? Right! Third year Biology: Pre-med undergrad I began to doubt myself, pretty hard. Yooo! Cell Biology and Organic Chemistry 2 kicked my butt. Just thinking about that year right now is making me sad. I talked to my parents (a.k.a my cheerleaders) and they encouraged me but after I finished that year I switched majors to Health Promotions. I could not do it. I took summer classes to make sure I would graduate on time but,… you know there has to be a ‘but’ because this life is a pot of hot beans.

Anywayssss, I finish my health classes on time and with only a couple weeks to graduation, I discover that many Dental schools require Biochemistry. Biochemistry was the next class I  would have taken if I continued my Biology major. Long story short I stayed an extra year in college to finish my Biology major. So I graduated May 2015 with two degrees. Yayyy!!

Ok, back to today, I am struggling between going all the way with Dental school or going all the way with Public Health. I don’t want to give up on my first love (dentistry) without at least trying my hardest but I also don’t want to ‘waste’ any more time trying if it’s not going to work out (Please ask me why I think it’s not going to work out.)

It’s stressful because my desire for Health Promotions is growing rapidly each day and I keep trying to justify it by saying there had to be a reason why I switched majors and then I justify Dental school by saying there had to be a reason why it was my first desire and why I switched back. I hope you understand what my state of mind is right now. *sigh*

Hello, my name is Ifeoluwa, and I am chasing two rabbits. *I imagine you’re saying ‘Hi Ifeoluwa.’* Yup! For now that’s exactly what I’m doing. I am hoping one rabbit will standout and be more desirable with the help of the Holy Spirit of course. I have been praying everyday about my future and for God to reveal His plans for my life to me. I am trusting and believing that He will. Still in my rabbit pursuit, I am preparing for my dental school exams next month and also applying to my school’s Public Health program. I cannot wait till I know which one is for sure, so I can focus and pursue it whole heartedly.

See you. :*